ME VS. ME

FUCC WUH U SAY LEMME WALK AWAY
THE WORDS ARE IRRELEVANT
MA MIND FILTERS 0UT UR BULLSHIT T0 SEE WUH CHU RELLE MEANT
MA HEART BENT THINKIN U WERE THIS ANGEL
BUH U PLAY GAMES ND LET ME DANGLE
FROM THESE STRINGS THAT HANG FROM MA ARMS
U SAY U MEAN NO HARM BUH UR THE PUPPETEER
MAKE MA HEAD NOD THRU THE FEAR ND SAY YES MASTER
THE GOOD MAN U PLAY THE ROLE OF A GOOD ACTOR
THE INSECURITIES MAKE ME ACT OUT FURIOUSLY
AM I CRAZY IVE QUESTIONED
BUH IVE TAUGHT MASELF MY OWN LESSON
DONT TRUST A GUY THAT HAS UR HEART
CUZ THEY WILL TEAR THAT SHIT APART
ITS ALRIGHT CUZ THERE WAS NOTHIN IN THERE TO BEGIN WITH
BUH ITS MA FAULT RIGHT CUZ THERE WAS NO LOVIN IN THE LIVIN
I HANG FROM A CLIFF WHERE U OFFER UR HAND
TO ONLY STAND WITH ME BUH STAY AS I JOURNEY HOME
I THOT U COOD GET THRU TO MA HARDHEAD
BUH INSTEAD U LEAD ME ON TO BELIEVE
UD LEND A SHOULDER
THINKIN U WERE MA BESTFRIEND
NOW I GOTTA BE A SOLDIER
THAT IM NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO BE
ANOTHER TRADGEDY IN THE BULLSHIT LIFE OF AUDREY
PRIDE HAS GOT ME SWALLOWIN MORE THAN HEART
HURTIN ME MORE THAN HELPIN MA HEART
NEVER WILL I START TO OPEN UP TO A LIAR
SOMEONE THAT MAKES ME CRY OVER FAKE SHIT
AM I THE BITCH TO FALL FOR IT
THOT I WAS SMARTER THAN TO FALL FOR THE GAMES
BUH A NEW VERSION CAME OUT
THAT I WAS UNAWARE OF THAT FUCCS WIT LOVE PPOE OBTAIN
INSTEAD THE LOSER GETS PAIN
I GUESS I LOSE..
ALL I WANTED WAS SOMEONE TRUE, BUH WUH I WANT
I WILL NEVER GET,
IMPOSSIBLE, AN OBSTACLE I WILL NEVER SURPASS,
SO MAD AT ALL THAT UVE DONE,
TO SEE THE ONLY ONE,
TO BLAME FOR MY PAIN
IS UNCLEAR TO SEE,
THAT THIS PERSON.. IS ME.

Livin the life that i do

Doin drugs, hangin wit thugs, not goin to sk0o

One motto i ought to abide by

Be true ta who ur heart says u are

Took for granted the times we were bored

Cuz the lord above showed me what to really love

Heartbreaks, headaches from ur mama and da homie drama,

You forget all that stupid shit,

When that hit is given and you find one less person livin

Be strong homie, dont give in

A horribe tradgedy, sad to see

Opens up them teary eyes and opens up a light of suprise

Like tupac said, “ everyone dies but you chose to go before me..”

It makes you see and appreciate the things u love and the things you hate

Maybe u go home to a family with no love

Or feel alone surrendering to drugs,

Its the small thingz that matter

Wakin up in the morin takin a shower

Torn between what clothes u will be seen wearin

When another doesnt ever get ta seen the sun again,

Dont always expect ta see another day

Nd later regret sleepin them nights away,

Looked at the clouds inna different way,

Knowin they behold

what makes ma homie sad nd cold

heaven took a beautiful gur,

altho i didnt kno her

i pray for her from the heart,

ashamed that i hadnt loved life from the start

thru the dark comes the light

that i know will help u thru the night despite the anger and pain

you’ve lost buh have gained

keep sane homie, and only appreciate ur life ever more,

ya family, friends and never waste this precious grace

when u see ur face in the mirror

ya’ll see thingz more clearer

smile, nd know ur still here

they say, g0d takes the g0od pp0e first

be thankful there was n0 sufferin nd that it c0odve been w0rse

nothing u can do buh pray, so dry ur tears and erase the fear

replace ignorance wit significance

dont cry for her instead smile and dance

knowing shes lookin down seein u without a frown

jux the way she knew u and the way that u do

hug ur parents and laught wit da homies

it may be da last time u will ever get to kno me

rest in peace arozo

rest in peace to ur soul

10/16/04

0nly usin it f0r privacy uses..

lemme tell u 0f ma tragic incident, a rainb0w came nd it attack;d me nd threw up all 0vurr ma hair! ..yep herez da pr0of..

 

i have t0o high 0f expectati0nz s0 basically, I, myself, am settin I, myself, up f0r failure.  PEACEDIZZLLLEEE..i kn0w that shitz 0verkill'd wit da IZZLES.. buh DAYUM i d0nt kn0w WHY ive been sayin DIZZLE s0 much lately. haha itz jux IN ME.

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